Wednesday, October 20, 2010

full-blown addiction

hi, my name is joann, and i'm a shoot-a-holic. i'm addicted to photographing sports.

no, but in all seriousness, what a GREAT feeling. i'm so glad i don't have to wait long to do it again (shooting volleyball -- TWO games -- over halloween weekend, holler!), and hopefully i won't have to wait much longer to see my shots, eek!

i shot the illinois soccer game vs. iowa this past saturday evening. i've shot soccer before, but that was in high school and it was during the daytime, not to mention my camera was terrible back then ... but anyway, this was definitely going to be a challenge. my original plan was to make it back to chicago early to late afternoon on friday, immediately drive down to champaign and shoot volleyball and watch midnight madness, and then shoot soccer on saturday night. unforch, i was still in the state of michigan when the doors for the volleyball game opened sooooooooooo i knew i wasn't gonna make it. i then revised my gameplan and planned on renting equipment early saturday morning before heading down to shoot the soccer game at night.

i went to dodd camera on armitage, and the guy working that day, john, was super helpful. they didn't have anything i was looking for (no olympus lenses, the only nikon body they had available to rent required a $5000 deposit, etc.), but he really worked to help me find other alternatives, and was very informative in answering my questions. there were two other guys in there that morning looking around for stuff (one guy said he had gone to school to study photography, the other guy seemed like he might have worked in photography -- he was talking about how he had just gotten a camera "yesterday, but it's not coming out until tomorrow" and whatnot) and i have to admit that i was a little intimidated and out of my element, but john was very kind and explained things/answered my questions without being elitist or condescending. i asked a question (what kind of camera should an amateur sports photographer like me get?) that kind of sparked a store debate about what camera i should buy, the pros and cons of each camera, etc. etc. after the whole big discussion died down, john came back to me and gave me a few suggestions and extended the offer to help me try out different lenses and stuff once i picked and purchased my body. so i walked out of the place without anything, but i still had a great experience there, so kudos to john and dodd.

anyway, dilemma. i knew my oly wouldn't hold up very well shooting soccer at night, so i let cary know about my situation, and he was super awesome and told me he could hook me up with some of his older equipment for the evening. i ended up shooting with his nikon d300 and a 70-200mm f/2.8 lens. he took the camera out of his bag and it looked like a behemoth compared to my oly. i put the camera around my neck and thought i was gonna fall over. definitely a very hefty camera. i was a little nervous at first, didn't know how to touch it or how to do anything. but it was pretty easy to figure out. snapped a few practice shots, fiddled around with the buttons for a bit, and by the start of the game, i had a vague idea what i was doing and my shots were turning out decent. when the anthem started playing or whenever play stopped, i didn't let that camera hang around my neck the way i usually do with my oly -- i probably would have tipped over -- i hung onto that thing for my dear life. good lord was i nervous the whole time.

shooting at night is crazy. kudos to those who do it on a regular basis. it was waaaaay different from shooting ultimate in natural light. even though the soccer field was illuminated, there were definitely some dark spots that the camera was picking up. i think once i get a little more familiar with what adjustments to make to adjust to lighting situations and once i figure out how to do it while simultaneously shooting, i'll start getting the shots i want. just takes experience and lots of playing around and learning your camera, i guess. the shooting situation was definitely a little different than volleyball. lots of the play was happening around the goals, so you just have to choose where you want to stand. obviously, you don't/can't stand behind the net, so mostly we just staked out the different corners, always standing at the net illinois was attacking. i pretty much picked two or three spots and stuck to those spots. the daily illini photographer was running around trying to get his shot, i was content with standing where i was and letting it come to me. lazy, what up.

shooting soccer was super fun. much like volleyball, it's constant action, the ball's moving fast, the girls are running all over the place. even though i was standing just out of bounds, the camera can only do so much -- when the play isn't happening right in front of you, on the sideline you're standing you, it's hard to get a good shot of something cool happening across the field or in the middle of the field. that was a bummer, when the ball would spend a lot of time in a place where i couldn't get a good shot. the atmosphere was a little different -- you're not right up next to the players like you are with volleyball at huff -- but there were times when the players would be battling for the ball right in front of us, that was pretty cool. i think on one occasion, marissa mykines passed to shayla mutz, who was on the sideline literally right in front of us. sometimes when you're so focused on getting a shot and you're just staring at the action through the viewfinder, you don't notice at all what's happening outside your line of view, so if shayla hadn't of stopped that ball, that ball definitely would have come flying at all the photographers on the sideline because none of us saw that ball coming. that was about as close to the action as i got all night, although i did get to see TWO megan pawloski flip throw-ins on my sideline. i think i got a pretty nice sequence of it too, although i didn't get the shot of the release i wanted. i'm not quite sure what i prefer shooting, volleyball or soccer. i think volleyball gets the slight edge here, leaving aside the huff vs. track and soccer field argument (because huff obviously wins, you can't beat being on the floor, literally inches away from a player as she serves and a mere foot away from the screaming spike squad). i guess with volleyball there were just more opportunities to capture emotion and reactions, which i like.

the game in itself was pretty sick. the illini came from behind to win it. i feel like all the scoring happened in something ridiculous like a seven minute span. so nasty. an iowa girl got called for a handball right in front of the ref, and then krystin miller made the pk even though the keeper knew exactly where she wanted it. the game went into overtime and shayla mutz had a nice breakaway from her defender and got it past the iowa keeper. speaking of that iowa keeper, i should have asked her after the game if she used to or still does play ultimate. i think she would make a GREAT monster. that girl was LOUD as hell. every time she yelled stuff like "TURN!" or "to your left/right", "shade in", "drop back", and other random shit that monsters yell out to you, i jumped out of my skin, she was so loud.

the illinois team was super cool. they have this mix they jam out to before their games (courtney's favorite "hello good morning" song is on it, needless to say i breathlessly texted her this information). they looked really good. marissa mykines is FAST. that girl was all OVER the place, i got tired just watching her. i didn't get to see too much of juice, my fave, but i saw lots of shayla mutz, who played mostly right in front of me. like i said, i got to see the famous paz throw in, and even though she just barely missed the save, i saw a SICK kapicka layout -- cary has the photo, and it will most CERTAINLY make illinoisloyalty or the dia gallery. finally got to see vdb play, too. DEFINITELY glad i made it to this game.

first, HUGE shout out to cary, who not only let me borrow his equipment but also hooked me up with a SEASON media pass for all the "olympic" sports at the university of illinois. understandably, it doesn't get me in to shoot for football or basketball, but he says that getting the women's basketball pass isn't too difficult. this basically means that for the rest of this entire year, i'll be able to get into games free and before doors open, and i'll be allowed to shoot on the floor of events without getting hassled by the dia, which is gonna be great. there's no date or year on my pass either, so cary said i could very well just keep on using it beyond this year, too (another photographer in the vicinity at the time admitted that his pass was from 2008, lawl). it's pretty sweet to have someone who is well-known and respected within the u of i sports photography community vouch for you and go out on a limb for you and do something big like this, so i definitely appreciate it. it's definitely like a "foot in the door" for me, so hopefully i learn a lot, get a nicer camera, take some sick shots, and hopefully get picked up by the dia or someone like that for some freelance work. seriously, none of this would have happened with cary, so huge props to the guy.

second, big shout out to patagonia. that cap 2 half-zip pullover is amazing. legitimately, in the past week, i've worn it about 5/7 days. it's pretty gross, but i just pulled that puppy out of the washing machine, so looks like i'll be wearing it some more soon hollerrrrr. anyway, the soccer game was a night game, and it was a little chilly and a little windy down on the pitch. i didn't want to shoot in a bulky jacket or hoodie, so i wore a long sleeve shirt, my ultimate long sleeve, and brought my pata half-zip along as well. it started getting a little windy just as the game started so i pulled on the half-zip and i was TOASTY for the rest of the night. the other people shooting and recording were wearing jackets and hoodies.

finally, thanks to the soccer team for such a SICK game. i had been saying all season that i needed to get down there and watch this team play, and when i finally get the chance to go down, it's an exciting game that goes right down to the wire (i think it was the first game this season that was a come-from-behind win). no record-setting performance from vdb (ALMOST WENT TO THAT GAME, UGH), but great game by the team nonetheless.

i'm pretty sure i'm going down to campus halloween weekend to shoot two volleyball games. hopefully i'll either find a d90 to borrow and try out, or my uncle will lend me one of his old nikons for the weekend. i'm reeeeeeeally looking forward to it, and i'm even more so looking forward to seeing my SHOTS from soccer!

awkward/embarrassing story #1: when i got to the field, i realized that i really, really had to pee. i was pretty sure they weren't gonna let me into the ticket office to pee, so i decided i'd go for the first port-a-potty i saw. once i walked down to the field, i saw a port-a-potty off to the side, next to a tent about twenty yards off the field, so i headed straight for that one. i went in, j'd my p's a little over having a season media pass around my neck, took care of business, and came out totally thinking to myself that that was the cleanest port-a-potty i had ever been in in my entire life. a few minutes later, after the girls were done warming up, i saw a couple players start walking to that port-a-potty. i then noticed that the tent it was next to was their halftime tent. and then i realized i had used the team port-a-potty instead of the public ones. *phew* good thing no player was waiting in line to use it while i was in there...

awkward/embarrassing story #2: cary had some business to take care of before we met up to set up the camera, so i hung out behind the goal and watched the illinois goalies warm up. i noticed that none of them put their hands in their pockets (like i did when i was beasting in between the pipes for thundercatz), but probably because their shorts didn't have any pockets. but anyway, all the little ball boys and girls were hanging out behind the net too, waiting to pounce on any stray ball that the keepers knocked out or the coach kicked out. i wasn't paying full attention and was half-watching and half-texting, so i was taken a little by surprise when a couple balls would come my way (that's a TWSS situation). for the most part i just awkwardly moved out of the way, but one time a ball actually rolled right up to me. i kicked it back to the keeper (margaret would have been PROUD, it was a good ass kick!) before the ball kid could get to it. he was maybe five or six, SUPER tiny compared to his friends, and he stood there and watched me kicked it. he watched the trajectory of the ball. he watched it roll back to the keeper's feet. then he turned and looked at me and gave me the most dejected, most hurt face i had ever seen on a child. i felt like such a monster.

awkward/embarrassing story #3: the guy shooting for the di was someone i apparently had class with. he went on to describe how we had discussion together and everything. apparently i was so far checked out of college by second semester that not only could i not remember the kid, i couldn't even remember the class he was referring to. WELP.

awkward/embarrassing story #4: i got caught staring at janet rayfield. NOT MY FAULT SHE'S A TOTAL BADASS.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

baby's first shoot

so in case i haven't gushed to you about the story, i recently had the privilege of shooting the illinois/penn state volleyball game at huff hall. it was the pitting of two big ten/national volleyball powers against each other early in the season, with #2 penn state, the current three-time defending national champions riding a 65-game big ten win streak into champaign to meet #9 illinois, a team that has already knocked off then-#2 texas in straight sets earlier this season. i've been a fan of illinois volleyball for a while now, but it never occurred to me that i could actually shoot their games.

i came upon this opportunity earlier this year, after a little bit of soul searching (to come in "just a dream part 2", if i ever get that finished). long story short, i decided that i wanted to see how far i could take this sports photography avenue, something i've been pretty interested in since my amateur days of shooting with my little ol' point and shoot. i'm a loyal lurker on illinoisloyalty, which is where cary frye posts a lot of his photos. that's where i got his name and twitter account, and i contacted him that way. i e-mailed him, asked him about how he got to where he is today (basically getting paid to go to illini events), and about the equipment he uses. he answered all my questions and more, and extended an invitation for me to shoot with him at events. it just so happened that the first opportunity i got to go down to a game was the penn state volleyball game. it was one i knew i was going to attend anyway, whether i was in the stands or shooting, so the possibility that i might be on the floor for it was just kind of the icing on the cake.

i talk a little bit about the game and some of my photos are on my other blog, so if you want to read about that head over there. here i'm gonna talk a little bit more about the actual experience of shooting.

i know it's only been a few months since i last made that drive on i57 but DANG that felt like a longass drive down to champaign. i was on campus mostly for business, so i kept the personal visits to a minimum. i hung out with an old friend i haven't seen in months for a little bit, and then i chatted with fozz and clurious george for about an hour or so before we realized we had to start getting ready for the game. i got to huff a little after 5pm and there was already a big line forming outside. the parking lot had already filled up and i was on the grass. when i finally got in the gym, i had a little bit of difficulty finding cary. one of the women working the floor wouldn't let me on the court (understandably), and i walked around for a while until i saw a guy holding a huge camera, wearing a nikon photo vest. the most i know about cary is that he has red hair, and the only photo i've ever seen of him is his illinoisloyalty avatar, which is him behind a camera. it was a shot in the dark but i introduced myself to this guy and it turned out to be cary, luckily for me. we got the introductions squared away, and we started talking about shooting right away. he helped me find all the settings i'd need to take photos indoors and we went over stuff like where he'd be shooting from, the use of flash, etc. etc. it was all pretty exciting.

we started shooting from the southeast balcony first. i watch volleyball quite a bit, but shooting it is a little bit different. i wasn't totally familiar with the timing for shooting, and i wasn't sure what the lag time would be for my camera. luckily the girls were warming up, so i used their warmup time to get my timing down. taking those photos was definitely frustrating, just because my zoom isn't that powerful and my flash isn't great. because i have a shorter, wider angle lens, that meant i wasn't zooming past all the heads in the crowd, so those showed up in a lot of my pictures. this was definitely the part that was whetting my appetite for shooting because i'd have good pictures timing-wise, but poor quality-wise. once i saw how those shots were turning out, i knew i needed to get better equipment, STAT. after the first set we moved downstairs and set up on the north end of the court. the view was definitely a lot better here, but again i was getting that zoom/height problem, catching a lot of heads in my shots. i was getting some decent shots of the players at the net and a lot of reaction shots. after that set we moved over to the south end of the court, right in front of the band and the student section. we stayed there the rest of the night. cary was a little disappointed, i think, because he wanted more shots from the balconies and whatnot, but the stands were PACKED and there would have been nowhere to set up. it worked out for me because my positioning made up for my equipment's shortcomings -- i got to stand right up next to the little fence they had to stop people from spilling onto the court, so there was no one in front of me except the stupid line judge, who made an appearance in waaaaaay too many of my photos. it was great, and i got a lot of cool shots.

i definitely learned a lot about the different camera settings and angles and things like that. shooting with ultimate is different because you get natural lighting, and usually there's no need to use flash. but shooting inside is totally different. also, because generally (unless you're shooting at a huge tournament like nationals), the sidelines are pretty clear and you can usually get a pretty good shot just sitting down. for all the nationals games, i was pretty much just parked on the sidelines with a camera in my hand. but for this game, i was standing for the entirety of the three hours, camera in hand, ready to go. i had no idea how sore my arm would be after the game! my right arm is actually still SUPER SORE today, three days after the match. pretty crazy. my back was killing me by about the third set. i mean, just a deep ache. i guess i don't really stand too much when i'm shooting ultimate. luckily my feet and legs were feeling okay. i knew huff would be hot as hell so i wore shorts and a t-shirt, but i'm so glad i also decided to wear gym shoes instead of flip flops -- my feet would not have been able to take standing there for three hours in flip flops or even slides. but seriously, i still can't get over the whole arm soreness thing! and my camera is pretty small, too! i can't imagine what it's gonna feel like when i start shooting with a bigger camera. guess i'm gonna have to do a lot more bicep curls ...

results-wise, i took 904 shots on the night, and found 135 of them "acceptable". of course, none of them would be posted on any website or anything like that, but those 135 shots are shots i think could be improved once i get a little more experience shooting and once i start using better equipment. i really don't know how to explain how shooting felt except to say that it was completely addicting. i love that feeling of chasing the "perfect shot" -- capturing the exact moment or emotion you want to capture, and getting it at just the right time. god i loved it. and the players are just so much fun to shoot. they all get so hype and just look like they're having so much fun playing. it was such a surreal experience. not just shooting but actually just being at the match. "history at huff" definitely lived up to its billing. the players were into it, the fans were into it ... it just made for an incredible atmosphere. it was definitely hard to stay impartial while i was down on the floor shooting. there were times when i'd want to put the camera aside and just watch the game, and when the team was down i just wanted to cheer and rally for them. when they got a big block or put away a kill, i wanted to do something, fist pump, anything, but i had to be content with just smiling or laughing. the big ten network rebroadcast actually has a shot of me laughing before i go back to take another picture. it's great.

i really couldn't have asked for a better teacher or a better first shoot. cary was great all night, and super patient and super kind. he let me follow him around and he was giving me great pointers all night. he said that he started out kind of like me, as just someone interested in shooting until someone gave him a shot and helped him learn the ropes. cary's a self-taught photographer, and he does this stuff as a side job, so it's pretty cool to learn from someone who's doing what i want to eventually do one day. i really can't get over how awesome it was of him to let me follow him around on that particular night, what with it being such a huge match. MAJOR thanks to cary.

it is definitely an experience i'll cherish for a long time. i still can't get over that i was on the FLOOR of huff for one of the biggest volleyball games in illinois program history. i was actually so close to the action that i almost got hit by the ball multiple times. i think it was in the fourth or fifth set, a penn state ace literally almost knocked the camera out of my hand and took my head off. i felt the wind as the ball whizzed by. it was pretty sweet. the girls all ran by me on their way back to the court after the intermission, and they all lined up in front of me for the alma mater. probably the coolest thing was that sometimes when the girls would serve, they would literally be DIRECTLY in front of me. like so close that i could just reach out and touch them. i didn't, of course, but it was pretty cool to think that i was actually that close to everything. i'm still in awe.

i'm not good enough at shooting that this could be a profession or anything like that for me, but this is definitely shaping up into a pretty expensive hobby. like i said, i'm addicted to wanting to get that perfect shot. it's really, really fun, and i don't know, i just felt right out there shooting. i would have loved to have been in the stands too, of course, but being on the floor behind the camera just felt right. i'm definitely gonna be back multiple times to shoot more games, and i'll definitely be going back with better equipment. now that i know how shooting goes with my own camera, i'm gonna go out and rent equipment for the next time i go down to champaign. eventually i'd like to own a better camera for myself, but for right now i'm only learning, and i'm still trying to figure out what's out there and what's best for me. but oooh i'm still riding an adrenaline high from friday night, and i can't WAIT go get back down to huff and shoot some more.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

i don't know which way i'm going

i don't know what i've become.


feeling pretty lost.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

welp.

who knew chasing your dreams could be so terrifying?